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Shoulda Coulda Woulda

2007-08-16T01:35:00.000+08:00

the aftermath of transitional phases is what i anticipate yet fear most.
should've this, could've that, would've been...
thing is, whatever decisions are made can be justifiable but still inevitably compromised in a certain sort of way.
it all voice down to content, doesn't it?
or maybe, content is merely a subset of a bigger root word, DENIAL.

every now and then, we're caged in a room full of excuses just so as to avoid questions of shouldas, couldas, and wouldas. 'Regret' is not part of your dictionary? Check the Oxford Dictionary of English that both you and I have, shall we? What we need would be actionable plans to counter the shoulda, woulda, couldas.

so there,

i should've focused more on the academics.
i will try the next few sems to come, and possibly take CFA once i start work.

i could've been even more proactive when dealing with home affairs.
tricky, but i just made a move earlier in the day and will only continue to do so.

i would've been flying a jet this morning.
i tried 2 years back and youth flying club rejected me because they felt i was too 'old'.
so i compensated myself with a driving licence. duh.
2 scuba diving licences, openwater and advanced.
and a powered pleasure craft licence which i have yet to utilise.

out.

Ya busta!

2007-07-04T00:18:00.000+08:00

enough is enough.
fuck you and fuck off.

i can be as heartless as anyone can be.
can't always end up at the losing end, can i?

It's overrrrr

2007-06-30T01:00:00.000+08:00

what is?

New venture creation / Fudan days.

NUS Overseas College (Shanghai).

just 2 more hurdles to go.
make it 3.

Fade

2007-06-29T00:26:00.000+08:00

these days,
i can't seem to feel much of you.

World Beneath my 9-inch feet

2007-06-18T15:38:00.000+08:00

just minimal. dammit.

in december 07, hopefully.

before that, it's gonna be...
Peking (again), China. Business Traveling.
Chengdu, China. Leisure & Photography.
Bangkok (again), Chiangmai, Thailand. Shopping, Leisure & Adventure.
Hong Kong (again), China. Harvard Business Conference & yi.
Pulau Aur (again), Malaysia. DIVING!

look at the world and i know i am not content.

iLust.

2007-06-13T00:42:00.000+08:00

so i was strolling along century park on my way home, just me, sade and the iPod.
and that triggered the search for some iAccessories.
look what i found...

ohmiGod, iDig music.

My love is wider, wider than victoria lake
My love is taller, taller than the empire state
It divides and it jumps and it ripples like the deepest ocean
I can't give you more than that, surely you want me back

Is it a crime
Is it a crime
That I still want you
And I want you to want me too

iRack. hahaha, very funny.

You'll Be Safe Here

2007-06-11T16:45:00.000+08:00

i wish for once, i could be undaunted by insecurity (in that particular aspect).
i keep having to remind myself that there's only one such person whom i can depend on,
& that's me, myself, and i.

so here it is, a dedication to thyself,

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

Roadmap

2007-06-03T18:49:00.000+08:00

/potala palace.

/yamdroktso lake.

For the following week:
04 - Guangzhou

05 to 07 - Hongkong

08 - Dinner at CG's

09 - ICSH (Capitaland)

10 - Family day

directions set for the next 5 years at least,
and i'm hoping the right decisions have been made.

3 more years to a quarter of a century.
now tell me, how not to feel old?

La Vie En Rose

2007-05-23T21:21:00.000+08:00

velvety touch,
with a passionate red.
no special occassion,
just out of the blue.

thank you, for making my day.
did i mention how caring is creepy?
and how insane the intensity gets?

//you and i, strolling along Bakhor street, the oldest street in Lhasa.

Hold me close and hold me fast

The magic spell you cast

This is la vie en rose

Let it Snow

2007-05-21T20:44:00.000+08:00

Tibet Travel Tip #07: Expect snow even in summer.

"why didn't we prepare attap chee, sweet syrup, red beans, sweet corn, grass jelly, evaporated milk... ...? HOW UHHH?"

//Qomolangma (Mt Everest) from the border of Tibet
Central Himalayan Region.
~8,850m high.

i've been imagining myself, rooted at the most remote crossroads, hoping for someone to deliver a sign.
and it's less than 2 months before my return.

Lost In Space

2007-05-17T22:51:00.000+08:00

//Forsaken sky burial with one too many tourists.

Tibet Travel Tip #06: Stupas mark the sacred spots. Knockovers and destroyers of pilgrims' commemorative stone shrines will be more susceptible to karmic emanations most possibly in the form of severe AMS (Acute Mountain Sickness), otherwise known as Altitude Sickness.

Tibet Travel Tip #05: Savour the taste of cotton-candied clouds on the highest pass.

Tibet Travel Tip #04: Ready the head gears, coupled with sunscreen and tripled with shades to filter away the scorching UV rays.
*Cowboy hats recommended for brokeback-ers.
*SPF50 works best. Bananaboat for arms and legs, Clinique for face.

Tibet Travel Tip #03: Water parade a must in the driest of lands.
*Nivea All Day Aqua Moisturizer & Vaseline Lip Therapy recommended.
Tibet Travel Tip #02: Dicks for the men, poncho /long skirts /pee pots /bladders with infinite capacity for the ladies on an arduous road trip.
*TR (aka Toilet Roll), a magnanimous saviour with the biggest heart.

Feels just so fine

When we touch the sky me and you

This is my idea of heaven

Why can't it always be so good

Tibetan faces

2007-05-16T20:26:00.000+08:00

Tibet Travel Tip #01: Spread the love to those who sparkle at the sight of life's simple delights.

Sweets, pencils, paper, and even a peek at your digi screen will illuminate the young Tibetan faces.

Christmas is not the only time to play Santa.

it was him,

who stole my heart away.

Rose-tinted

2007-04-20T01:07:00.000+08:00

sometimes, looking through rose-tinted glasses may be the only viable option.

April 13-17 // Meet the folks, in shanghai.

April 15 // Business Executive Night at the Regent Hotel.

//the bannerman can.

//serene, the surprise.

7 days to our 2nd.
7+3 days to our lhasa,shigatse,mt. everest base camp,gyantze...trip.
6 deadlines before the much anticipated.
Godspeed.

You Got Me

2007-04-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

missed the Roots gig for ERA 时空之旅,
but i still managed to get my favorite live on 750i.
all smiles for the few precious minutes.

you got me, for sure.
lovely homies.

blasting on replay, dancing silly on the toilet floor.
the heavy heart managed to shed a pretty substantial amount of weight a while ago.

back to reality.
to work, work, work, & more work.

as long as you love me

2007-04-13T01:59:00.000+08:00

6th April - Christine's 五连拍, to be cont'd.
followed by Overseas Chinese Mixer @ Neocafe.

7th April - takumi with 4 hongkies, 4 singaporeans, and my unagi fix.
followed by barbarrosa.

10th April - Company dinner at 唐朝, Marriot.

8th April - Cantonese Family Restaurant
9th April - South Beauty
11th April - Banana Leaf
with the Small Uncle.

5th & 12th April - treats on 2 thursdays at Uncle Ah Long's bah kut teh restaurant.

how you got me blind is still a mystery,
i can't get you out of my head
don't care what is written in your history,
as long as you're here with me.

do you remember the old school primary school days?
backstreet's back alright!

It's Raining Men

2007-04-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

the uncle's here.
the father in 4 days.
the boy end of April.

did i mention that my last couple of months here is rated hectic?

no time for this.

the last 4050

2007-04-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

/TMSK on April's Fool.

finally. the lump sum is given.
no more forking out 4050 at one go.

the decision has been made.

& it's a NO. dead NO.
4 precious hours of air in my lungs gone to waste.
it did drain the life out of me...with nothingness. naught.

Brainiac

2007-03-28T20:54:00.000+08:00

Mayvis says:
Ms tan, yr father here. Yr youngest sis told me of yr 3As for yr modules. Well done! Looks like you can go for PHD.

nice try,

How many oceans & continents are there in the world?

Consolidated answers from several people, including yours truly stupidly:
For oceans - 3, 4, 5, 7
For continents - 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11
And the classic - Africa is in Asia (it wasn't me.)

thou shall never be stumped.

According to wiki,
The world ocean is subdivided into the Southern Ocean, the Atlantic Ocean, the Indian Ocean, the Pacific Ocean and, arguably, the Arctic Ocean.
That gives us 5 oceans.

According to worldatlas,
Continents BY SIZE #1 Asia - (44,579,000 sq km)
#2 Africa - (30,065,000 sq km)
#3 North America - (24,256,000 sq km)
#4 South America - (17,819,000 sq km)
#5 Antarctica - (13,209,000 sq km)
#6 Europe - (9,938,000 sq km)
#7 Australia/Oceania - (7,687,000 sq km)
7 continents deffo.

Flowers in the window

2007-03-25T22:34:00.000+08:00

correction: not cherry, but peach blossoms.
at 上海南汇桃花村.

Wow, look at you now
Flowers in the window
It’s such a lovely day
And I’m glad that you feel the same

desires are healthy.
but the frustration derived from deprivation can be so overwhelming.
so, where did my baby go?

Where did my baby go?
I wonder where he ran off to
I miss my baby so
I'm calling but I can't get through

Each Day Gets Better

2007-03-24T16:59:00.000+08:00

Where do we go, who knows?
But each day gets better

it does, doesn't it?
even with the suffocating amount of work,
the little petty & senseless tiffs,
the sobbing skies,
yada yada.

the act of ameliorating brings more returns than anyone can imagine.
i actually enjoy getting caught in the heavy traffic of projects, proposals, bosses, colleagues, discussions, debates, emails, phonecalls. and next i know, i go "TGIF!" and treat myself to a nice japanese meal. i absolutely love minor quarrels (not huge uproars) and the sweet apologetic state either one, or both will succumb to eventually. and just the thought of how the sun rays will gently plant kisses on my cheeks after the grays... ...awww..each day gets better.

so now, after "letters from iwo jima" & "the shawshank redemption", i'm headin out for dinner. tomorrow, it's gonna be cherry blossoms about an hour away. thereafter, i'll have to make plans for tibet, maybe guangzhou & hong kong, and of course bangkok before my return to sunny island.

Comfortable

2007-03-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

/16th:dinner with e-scholars from the university of portland.
followed by 南京步行街，外滩 & New Heights (the all-too-familiar route).

/17th:visited a Jewish synagogue, a baptist church & a chinese temple.
but i was more drawn to this antique store.
& even more so, to the Lamboghini Murcielago below.

/a while back: at 长乐路,
a street that i kinda like.

Our love was, comfortable and so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
I'm not impressed, I want you back

A john mayer song, of no relevance to my mood whatsoever,
triggered by the word 'comfortable'.

recently, it's just been comfortable.
even the broken water heater doesn't bother me that much anymore.
Content breeds happiness.
so i guess i'm pretty much contented of late.

Cursed & Cussing

2007-03-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

my farking water heater decided to rain, no, POUR on me. literally.
the farking pipe exploded. so it's either i get flood from the heater or i get no farking water from the shower head at all. zilch. fark. i've to farking use the other toilet with a mildly choked, but still choked drainage system. so if it's the farking time of the month (& presuming my heater is still not replaced), i'm definitely gonna be farking struggling in a sea of red. the current farking toilet i'm using now is in no way equipped for ALL my womanly stuff (the toiletries, the pantyliners, the clean/dirty clothes, etc.) & the farking lock is farking spoilt. so as my farking heater malfunctions, the farking tap which i wake up to daily only provides me with farking subzero water.
it's farking messin up my quintessential routine.

the whole of last night, my farking internet connection was down.
& guess what now? i can't farking log on to msn. not on farking live messenger, not on farking meebo, not on farking iloveim, not on farking imtata, not on beng's farking live messenger. so i've no farking choice but to save the bitchin' for this farking entry of mine, externalizing and focusing the farking rage at one single point. I even went to the farking extent of taking deep breaths, in and out, in and out as though i'm farking giving birth.

fark the series of unfortunate events. fark the reliance on farking technology. i swear i could kill someone now.

do not antagonize me. I REPEAT, DO NOT ANTAGONIZE ME.

Play/Stop

2007-03-13T02:06:00.000+08:00

When solution 1 failed, i took on 2 & 3.
green tea ice-cream, strepsils. not surprised?
random voice clips. not heard?
out-of-the-blue handwriting. not seen?

i used to get all defensive and peeved.
now that i'm trying, i only get disheartened.
there's a reason why 'Stop' is always seen with 'Play'.
metaphorically, i've thought of several reasons.

at least i made someone feel better.

Love Generation

2007-03-12T01:11:00.000+08:00

babysitting/tutoring: new loves from san diego.

fudan university: new acquaintances from hongkong, shanghai, and capetown(south africa)

mesa manifesto, babyface, attica: new meets from upenn, shanghai, mauritius, germany, italy, france

ah, kurwa!

From jamaica to the world,
it's just love. It's just love.

Peace on earth to everyone you meet.
Don't you worry, it could be so sweet.

Feel the love generation.

P.D.A We Just Don't Care

2007-03-09T02:34:00.000+08:00

Let's go to the 'sentosa'
I wanna kiss you underneath the stars

Let's make love
Let's go somewhere they might discover us
Let's get lost in lust
We just don't care,
We just don't care,
We just don't care.

/Edited by LPKS.
for you, from me.

the time machine

2007-03-06T23:56:00.000+08:00

the search for aj's pictures turned out to be a trip back in time as i was lured into the realm of history, of bittersweet memories, of those who stay close & of passersby. browsing through the past with rewinds and forwards was a little like lurking in the neighborhood of emotional vulnerability. so, while i was walking the sinusoidal path, i made a few observations that really tickled.

1) i only learnt to smile at the end of year 04, and was a mix breed of chubbypandabunny before.

2) i had the most horrendous looking hair. straight, fringeless, flat and lifeless with an awfully distinct side parting.
3) i'm not the only stupid/fugly-looking one. Most of my friends were half-, if not twice as bad.

some people come, some people go.
to those who stay, i just wanna say THANK YOU.

心想事成

2007-03-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

the wishing tree, where we had to toss a red rectangular cloth with a coin-like weight at one end, up on the branches. mine's written with ‘心想事成', success to whatever the heart seeks. up on the 2nd attempt. if the 5RMB works miracles, i'll toss 10 next time.

the fireworks and firecrackers have been unceasing since 4 hours back, from puxi all the way to pudong. it's as though they are simulating crisis conditions to prepare us for bombings that seem almost inevitable.
i've never thought of fireworks/crackers as uninteresting, until now.

back to Spring clean, then it's Shower, followed by Supernatural.

Come fly with me

2007-03-01T19:46:00.000+08:00

h-a-p-p-y. and that's me.
beacuse all's well, life is good, smiles aplenty.

.flashbacksinrandom.
surprises&moresurprises.reunion&muchlove.bagua&pineappletarts.louhei&abalone.summer&shorts.sleeveless&slippers.pursuitofhappyness&bestie.poker&mahjong.angbaos&winnings.sunkissed&jacuzzi.fishballnoodles&bachormee.CM&IO.palawan&thecrossingsnake.graze&mint.babyeve&greenapplemojito.amazinggrace&bubbletrouble.chauffeur&chauffeured.rage&passion.thecannery&reversebungee.moonlight&sandybeach.tempura&wagyubeef.siblingscousins&settler's.bearhugs&warmkisses.give&take.sweat&showers.greentea&strawberry.casual&deep.seafood&spice.hellos&goodbyes.yadayada,thisandthat,blabhblahblah.

more mint leaves please?

python crossing.

come fly with me,
let's fly, let's fly away.

dumbass.

2007-02-18T01:52:00.000+08:00

over and over again.
hiding is as good as lying, ain't it?
fcukedup.
that makes huangshan sequel more worthwhile, albeit the aching joints.

Happy Chinese New Year!
winnings for the first mj session amounts to $90.50.

Quit toyin' around

2007-02-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

restless at work & fiddling with city truck.
quit toyin' around.

/blueice & guandii on a wed.

/花木派 before INSH @ Rendezvous Restaurant.

/Rodin exhibition @ Shanghai Sculpture Space.
invites from winne, together with suz & odi.

personally, i like the kiss.
the surge of emotions from within,
reminded me of jennifer beals.

buddha jump over the wall.
plus the loot of 5s & 9s,
sponsored by Uncle Joseph.

Message deleted.

2007-02-04T21:44:00.000+08:00

you are my fucking mistake.
i'm done with it.

tell me, what should i gather from that?

Is it a Crime

2007-01-28T23:39:00.001+08:00

sade on replay.

Seemingly Sleepy

2007-01-24T01:56:00.000+08:00

soon enough, i was home.
made an almost negligible call & stood beneath the hot shower.
next i knew, my face lay flat against the sheets casually strewn at the bottom of the bed and my body, limp.
few hours later(or so i thought), i inched myself towards the pillow, held on to PP and continued the semicomatose state.
imaginary percepts of reaching out for the phone to set the alarm, walking out for a glass of water to ease the dehydration urged me to follow suit in reality, which i just did.
the aching has penetrated through the bones a little, especially at the calves.
i don't think i'm quite entitled to being an insomniac anymore, judging from the amount of work piling up, the countless meetings, and others on the sideline.

i should probably be, a Late Night Alumni.

Get me up,
get me through,
give myself a talking to

Dance tonight

2007-01-22T20:00:00.000+08:00

all on a saturday,

/3G technologies site visit @ 嘉定.

/南翔小笼@上海古猗园餐厅.

/Go-karting @ 迪士卡赛车馆.

/官邸.

more ladies, finally.
life's definitely gonna get more interesting.

I wanna dance tonight
I wanna toast tonight
I'll spend my money tonight
I wanna get freaky tonight

2Es

2007-01-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

虹桥's 大渔 tops the chart.
absolutely flamin'
free deals yesterday:
company's treat @ magaroni for lunch,
& teppanyaki buffet (above) for dinner.

Enlightenment:

Good things happen to good people.
which means, i haven't been good enough.

Empowerment:
SPT consisting of managers mainly.
overall coordinator?!?
in this case, humility proactiveness performance resourcefulness with a subtle, most delicate tinge of assertiveness may be the critical success factors.
oh, GY.

/snack street @ 王府井，北京.

back to the Hansen case.
Business Excellence course 18-190107.

Scars

2007-01-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

the damage is done, the blemish stays.
i forgive easily, but i never forget.

nsngaenp. the irony of it all.

secrets, games?wtf.
excitement, plain?right on.

positivity keeps me sane and i'm thankful for that.

/no name bar @ 后海，北京.
quaint, charming
& cosy.
the persian knows one when she sees one.

'Bout it

2007-01-13T17:11:00.000+08:00

Freshmates.
Jerzy (pronounced as Yury) from Poland.
Daphne from homeland & NTU.

huge-arse king prawns in fermented rice sauce,
that could've triggered the hyperventilation.

18 course company annual dinner.
endless flow of drinks/lucky draw prizes.
sweet.

20 swedish meatballs for 25RMB
hotdog for 3RMB
ilove ikea.

chef minnie & curry II , tomorrow.

Now I been walking up this road tryin' to find which way to go
Tryin' to pull my faith
Sometimes it seems like I don't know

you see, you hear, you feel, you learn.

Subway sandwich(ed)

2007-01-10T22:56:00.000+08:00

just 2 steps away from the door,
and i was jostled 4 steps back.
sandwiched, jabbed on the ribs but i still made it out in the end.
perhaps i should compile a book entitled "Shanghai Subway Stories"

truth hurts,
but i can handle the truth.
so, just shoot.

for christmas,

for new year,

P in Peking...

2007-01-08T15:37:00.000+08:00

& in Shanghai. Dec 22nd - Jan 4th.

the withdrawal symptoms easing just a tiny bit.
maybe more so now.

I'm just...comfortably numb.

Cold showers

2007-01-02T01:17:00.000+08:00

for once, i'm able to brave the cold shower (in winter).
& it turns out to be a highly delectable moment to savour.

Happy 07 to all.

Cruisin'

2006-12-22T02:05:00.000+08:00

Baby let's cruise, away from here
.
.
.
You're gonna fly away
Glad you're goin' my way
I love it when we're cruisin' together

i'm grinning ever so often that more cracklines are surfacing on the already chapped lips.
just several hours more.
meanwhile,

/Farewell for 5th Batch @ CG's.
/Qipu with June, Hardo, yongthai.
/Company farewell dinner for June & Tom @ Bellagio.
/大渔 feast.

/Bengies' lil' party @ 中山.
Dec 10-15 06

/NCSH 5th Batch D&D @ 衡山小馆.
Dec 08 06

100 & 1%

2006-12-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

can there be anyone who's 101% there for you,
when you're not even there for yourself?

strange enough,
i told him to make do with flings instead.
& i only said so because i don't want him to hurt all over again.

it pains me.
deep.
(but i promise, it'll only be for tonight, a night to indulge in self-pity.)

& as for you, you & you,
i'm sorry it has to happen.
but please, please stay with me.
only your decisions count.

Bang(s)!

2006-12-19T22:48:00.000+08:00

shot through the heart.
again and again and it's final.
a relief, isn't it?

on a lighter note:

back to bangs.

Blackout.

2006-12-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

a night without electricity.
freezing.

& so it is...
he has been possessed.
disappointed.

she did it again...
compulsive & in debts?!?
fcukin crazy.

today's menu: /qipulu with Angela(local friend).

Tips left for us over at Ajisen?! (:

In the waiting line

2006-12-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

lazy evening back in 花木 home,
refusing to brave the winter weather.

waiting in line for a special visitor.

/1st-3rd Dec.

down under crew.
beloved neh di's 21st.
missing photos: pretty, drunk, missy denise's 20th.

/17th Nov - the wedding.

wait in line
'till your time

ticking clock
everyone stop

B4MD

2006-12-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

i want this, now.

Recap.

2006-12-09T19:22:00.000+08:00

/4th-11th Nov.

lost & found but not collected:
camera casing x1
sd card x1
sd card reader x1

word count: 4, 465.
lazing on the couch.
pirating fervently.
with easy listening that soothes the mind.
thou shall not be bothered by all else.

Nirvana

2006-12-09T01:51:00.000+08:00

i'm back.
& i hope it's real.

flickering candles alongside a red carpet.
a chef, a violinist, and a lovely couple.
dancing in the moonlight in each other's arms.

saccharine sweet.

i'm just so happy for you.

2006-12-06T01:01:00.000+08:00

i finally let it all out.

Beware of lies

2006-11-29T02:23:00.000+08:00

what are the chances of munching on a stick biscuit emblazoned with the words "beware of lies"?

Your Intellectual Type is Inventive Inquisitor. You have the unusual distinction of being equally good at math and verbal skills. This means you are a creative thinker and are uniquely good at teaching others through experiences. You are also a great improviser and very good at handling change.

homebound

2006-11-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

back for the wrong reasons, at the wrong time.
bye to xmas/new year leaves.
bye to hk/macau.

only time will tell.

Paradigm

2006-11-15T16:38:00.000+08:00

what's over:

innovation driver course
-koreans, japanese, thai, malaysian, indonesians, indian, taiwanese, chinese(suzhou, wuxi, beijing, shanghai, guangzhou etc.), & of course, the mostoutspokeneffectivelybilingualbestpresenteryoung&jovial singaporean.
-creativity X implementation
-paradigm shifts
-paradigm flexibility
-paradigm paralysis
yada yada yada...

a little treat from the course:

my legendary moleskine.

what's in for tonight:

right wins.

left wins.

bonafide enigma

2006-11-13T11:42:00.000+08:00

bonafide enigma,

a hush-hush lovething.
no questions please.

off to 苏州 in a bit.

schedule for the day reads:
1500-1520: Short introduction to the Course (GTI)
1520-1630: Group division and opening exercise (GTI)
1630-1645: The principles of the Idea Development proces (GTI)
1645-1830: The Paradigm of Business (JDI)
1830-1930: Dinner
1930-2100: Reflection on innovation projects together with trainers and buddies

all over again

2006-11-07T17:32:00.000+08:00

Just for laughs:
(before the very dry logbook)

28th-29th Oct//
1. Anji Bamboo forest trip
(that nearly caused the death of us.)

30th Oct//
1. Recuperation
2. Preparations for business trip

31st Oct//
1. Driven to 无锡
2. Lunch with sales director of GZ & AE supervisor of GWC
3. JD session & interview with ENG/QA&QC dept.
4. Dinner treat from Lucy's hubby @ Thai restaurant

1st Nov//
1. GWC official opening ceremony
2. Buffet lunch
3. JD session & interview with ENG/QA&QC dept. cont'd
4. Dinner with Paco suppliers near 太湖

2nd Nov//
1. JD session & interview with ENG/QA&QC dept. cont'd
2. JD session & interview with Admin dept.
3. Lunch @ GWC canteen
4. JD session & interview with Finance dept.
5. JD session & interview with Material dept.
6. Dinner at Japanese restaurant

3rd Nov//
1. JD session & interview with Material dept. cont'd
2. JD session & interview with Operations dept.
3. Lunch @ GWC canteen
4. Train ride back to GSH
5. Dinner with June, Hardo & Tom

4th Nov//
1. Retail therapy
2. Pizza buffet dinner with Hardo & KS

5th Nov//
1. Cerecare 3rd Anniversary
2. Steamboat dinner back @ 花木 home

6th Nov// 复旦大学.

7th Nov// Normal work day.

Upcoming:

8th-10th Nov// Business Travelling to 无锡.

12th Nov// Dinner with Korean ladies from GPK.

13th-15th Nov// Innovation Driver Course @ 苏州(2days) & 上海(1day).

18th Nov// Case Proposal Discussion with Prof. Kau

25th Nov// Youth Executive Night.

Play back:
Please give me another chance

To write you another song

Take back those things I've done

Cause I'll give you my heart

If you would let me start all over again

crash and burn

2006-10-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

i think a part of me just died.

the walls are closing in on me.

dragged to the abyssal depths where noone, not even you, can reach me.

gonna crash & burn for now,
please let me heal later.

to my bestie

2006-10-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

happy 21st,
my moral center of the universe.

i (heart) you.

to my dearest cousin

2006-10-26T19:00:00.000+08:00

happy 23rd birthday.
your gift is on its way.

love and misses,
needless for more words.

small is beautiful

2006-10-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

/petite lil' bookstore much to my liking.

mondays made more bearable with wakana-san around.
it's time, but the crankiness hasn't quite set in yet.

mood is weather dependent.

frustrating is to hot & humid, just as:
a) stupid : thunderstorms
b) dumb: cloudy
c) retarded : light showers
d) needy : chilly
e) none of the above.

good luck, and goodbye

2006-10-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

days 00 hrs 00 mins 58 secs 02

counting down to a miracle.
to the mark of new history.
to multitudinous cries worldwide.

good luck, and goodbye.

funkytown

2006-10-21T14:28:00.000+08:00

6th Shanghai Nanjing Road Sculpture Exhibition

my favourite piece.
you only see what your heart wants you to see.

lost in translation

2006-10-19T09:49:00.000+08:00

here i sit, staring blankly at the overwhelming chinese characters.

inadequate & frustrated.
ignoring the backdrop calls that beckon.

last i heard was "janice, we're going to Wuxi at 11."

been feeling a surge of emotions the past 3 days that i'm not sure if i am able to comprehend.

slightly more than an hour to prepare.
i'll get back to this mystifying realm of i-don't-know-what-to-call-it again.

to my heart's content

2006-10-18T00:53:00.000+08:00

/le grandeur arrival.

/beautiful people.

/toodles noodles. be back for you again.

/the L affair & solitary pukefest.

/table 108 of the musically inclined.

/never been better.

/recharged.

/the one. revisited.

/s.EX incomplete.

/bonbon, shanghai.

/superstar.
missin' you

Golden Week

2006-10-11T14:57:00.000+08:00

29th Sept//
1. arrival
2. seafood galore @ turf city
3. haagen dazs @ siglap
4. ph

30th Sept//
1. nydc @ wheelock place
2. haato ice cream @ wheelock place
3. holland ave
4. ph
5. mooncake festival bbq @ ballota
6. home
7. ph

1st Oct//
1. ladyj delivery services around pasir ris & tampines
2. sakae sushi @ marina square
3. chinese grand prix @ ph
4. 5 star chicken rice along east coast rd
5. ph

2nd Oct//
1. macs brekkies @ ph
2. shopping with the catalyst in town
3. coffee club @ marina square
4. zi char along east coast rd
5. poker @ ph
6. macs supper

3rd Oct//
1. coffee club @ siglap
2. gelare @ siglap

4th Oct//
1. poh piah @ home
2. lesbian love @ phuture
3. gracie's
4. ph

5th Oct//
1. duck rice @ pasir panjang
2. ladyj delivery service in NUS
3. coffee club xpress @ fass
4. crash geog lect
5. killiney kopitiam @ marina square
6. meet up with NOC 7th batch @ kenny rogers, marina square
7. ba chor mee along east coast road

6th Oct//
1. KW Chan medical clinic & surgery
2. pasta fresca da salvatore @ siglap
3. kim's hokkien mee @ liang seah st.
4. table 108 @ chijmes
5. home
6. macs supper @ ph
7. home

7th Oct//
1. prawn noodle @ home
2. ladyj delivery service to jesslyn's
3. mum's bday celebration @ waraku, marina square
4. ktv @ the one
5. ph

8th Oct//
1. japanese grand prix @ ph
2. home-cooked food @ ph
3. zi char @ changi village

9th Oct//
1. HSS library @ NUS
2. appointment with DWE @ GSI, tuas
3. s.EX quickie @ NTU Hall of Residences 3
4. stranded @ parkway parade
5. ph
6. coffee club @ orchard fountain corner
7. ph

10th Oct//
1. sakae sushi @ century square
2. home
3. ladyj delivery service to bubbles'
4. home
5. kopitiam @ T1
6. departure

the rest, i can't quite recall.

Les Miserables

2006-09-14T09:00:00.000+08:00

greeted by chill winds, besprinkled with occasional droplets. narrow spaces, unwashed hair, grimy fingers, unshaven pits, nauseating smell...umbrellas carried around like weaponry, threatening to disfigure oblivious faces or steal one's sight. what more could you possibly add on, to dampen the mood of the home\lovesick?
sarcasm.
nonchalance.
tension.
followed by an aggravated case of insomnia.

baby, please spare me the misery.
am sorry for the irrational, senseless harsh words hurled at you in fits of anger and distress.
it's the workings of my defense mechanism.
please try to understand.
i love you.

黄山

2006-09-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

/2 days.388 shots.

/the people.

/rising star.

/double the joy.

/stairway to heaven.

/your average jan.

/chain of fools.
could i still lock your heart where proximity fails us?

/fly.

/cast of triplets.

/sweet valley.

/footworks.

beautiful\crazy.

/God's gift.

It's a hard knock life

2006-09-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

/southeast CDC dinner.
-070906-
a life without shortcuts is a life most meaningful.

498 & counting

2006-09-06T00:18:00.000+08:00

sums up to 498 till this day.
happy birthday, my love.
it felt as though the fireworks over at century park were meant for you.

/746 to fudan university.
mondays 0955-2030.

/chartres.
pennsylvania decor strikes a chord. familiarity of the cosy home back in sg.
sweet.

/marriott.
politics over tea, coffee, smoothies.

/M.E.I Sharing session.

/wangxi, a local friend.
sugar, spice & everything nice.

/signboard screams HEALTH.
no oil, no salt, no sugar whatsover.

-speakeasy

2006-08-31T14:20:00.000+08:00

freedom of speech curtailed.
speak easy,
what irony.

Afterall

2006-08-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

OSKA sent 8/30/2006 2:43 AM:
I know in my heart and mind
That no matter, come what may, love will survive

After all
I will be the one to hold you
I will be the one to hold you in my arms

teared at the sight of the lyrics.
teared at the sight of oska's photos.

love.

1918

2006-08-29T13:58:00.000+08:00

came across the number @ work.
missin' it, but more so its' owner.
buy 4d!!!

quest for subway around the vicinity of people's square begins!

Gimme some love

2006-08-29T01:46:00.000+08:00

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind says:i love you la babe.
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind says:u dunno how much but i do

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind says:i loveee u babe..
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind says:everything hurts

the hillside, home-cooked fried rice, stayovers, retail therapies, jalan rimau...etc. etc. etc.
it's so much more than just lesbian tendencies.
you'll see me in no time, i promise! plus the Holland-er won't be away for long!
& there's still half the club left: lu, brown, yq.
chuck the carrots aside for other veggies. i prefer leaves to roots.
love!

--------------------------------

another sleepless night.
because of you.
what am i to do?

Lifetime

2006-08-27T17:19:00.000+08:00

/Launch of Overseas Singaporean Portal @ The Regent Hotel.
-270806-

/noc mates, with DPM Wong & CG Chan. /with musical talents, Andrea Teo & Mark Chan.
/partial 6th batch. /Hardo HuuuuUuuu-ang poseurs.

/Suz & Jan @ Babela's Kitchen.
-250806-

/sponsored dinner @ Intercontinental Pudong hotel with uncle joseph.
-240806-
i am not disappearing!!!

------------------------------

I can let my life pass me by
or I can get down and try
work it all out this lifetime
work it on out this time
I can let it all pass me by
or I can get down and try
work it all out this lifetime, lifetime

the addiction has been intensified. Maxwell's classics have become part of my daily routine, sending me into temporary frames of melancholia too many a times. love is not a fairytale in a melody, neither is it in reality. still, i want it to survive throughout this lifetime, and not just within the year. screw the jealousies.

important announcement:
latest handphone bill amounts to S$474 without the cents.

suggestions to the much loved people back in S'pore:
1) less calls, more skype or msn @ jantanice.

2) weekdays 0830 - 1730 call +86 21 61225238
3) other times, call +86 136 1166 9243

jan...out.

1st month in Shanghai

2006-08-23T17:16:00.000+08:00

/the bestie, sis si, & neh di.
thank you for accompanying me during the 1st week of my stay, lurbch.

/cheena lady dancing in skimpy outfits @ windows tempo(1st club visited):

/西唐.
290706
/Tiger Translate @ Shanghai Sculptures.
050806
beng, ntu peepsies, & a new found local friend, Angela.

/NDP Dinner @ Le Meridien.
060806
i love Singapore. really.
absolutely adore the lil' performers.

/actual National Day @ crossroad, Raffles City.
090806
beng, the housemate.

/Studio 54, Minx.
120806

Breakfast in Bed

2006-08-22T13:00:00.000+08:00

acute spasms, aggravated by the malady of discontent throughout the night was enough reason for a day off at work. imagine the rude awakenings every now and then caused by cramps. ugh.
topped off with an overcast sky and malicious thunders, this very morning was wonderfully bitter.

my life-saver:
Blueberry morning, the essence of home-baked almond blueberry muffins.
in bed.

i miss tummy rubs & warm water served to the lips, at ph.
and it sounded like there wouldn't be such privileges anymore.

jan...out.

Weekend of meetings

2006-08-20T22:57:00.001+08:00

/NUS Board of Trustees Meeting with NUS Overseas College (Shanghai) students.
on a Sunday.
i have an affinity with lawyers it seems.
well-versed, with the manifestation of chivalry, Mr Chandra really reminds me of Uncle Giles.

/awaiting the VIP.

/Shangri-la hotel.

/Shenyang function room.

/tea reception.

东方明珠 marks the end of the week.

saturday blues.
/on the way for Business Strategic Meeting 06.

Consulate general's place.
6th batch @ Jeryl's.
2 dosages of homely treatment.
quality time with Suz & Shelagh - a lil' less superficial, & a lil' more sincere.

during the 'last' working hours of the non-TGIF friday.
source of motivation for the busy weekend.
/beloved baby nat. /hello jan jiejie. /you want to eat?
/everlasting smile. /with my lil' bro, myron. /singing a cutesy hi^5 song.
/you! /bleah! /hi five!

Day 30

2006-08-17T10:09:00.000+08:00

/daily sustenance at work.
font, you're not really gonna carry plastic bags around, are you?!?
i've read about Heathrow airport too. hope you're well, love.

30 days and counting.
damn the hunger pangs caused by excessive craving for coffee club's garlic prawn pasta.
chai chee ba chor mee.
old airport road's fried fish soup.
katong mall's chicken rice.
crystal jad-ing sessions with the boy.
home-cooked poh piah.
chilli crab.
drunken tiger prawns.
fishhead curry.
ITE east restaurant's lobster porridge.
all the SEAFOOD!!!
fruit flo.
muddy mud pie.
etc.
etc.
etc.

the only consolation: a new bakerzin outlet in Raffles City, Shanghai!

deprived jan...out.

16 hours & beyond

2006-08-15T23:33:00.000+08:00

too slow SITI. i made my way to 无锡 burrowing into befitting information.
efficiency please! ain't gonna stall because of you.
无锡三白 not that appetizing, saccharine flavored 小笼包s not my cup of tea either.
i want a chauffeur too.

SSBA's treat, Swensens @ 徐家汇美罗城.

spent more than 1/2 a day out (>16 hrs). work can be rather exhausting.
i'll survive though.

jan...out.

All the small things

2006-08-14T01:04:00.000+08:00

oliver brown says:
neh jie wan an..

oliver brown says:
hahaha.. miss u hor
Janice Tan Shu Wen +86 136 1166 9243 says:
miss u too.

small little things i really appreciate, especially in times like this.
/lurbch.

Sodium chloride

2006-08-13T02:59:00.000+08:00

missin the bestie. who else will flood my s'pore line with smses?
I want Holland for Holidays!

i'm alovin' the fcuk sale.
& missin mj sessions at ph.

fascinating at first,
but automated mj tables @ teahouses with minimal stakes can be quite a bore.
1 round was never enough.

nagging is really a form of concern, a wrongly expressed TLC.
when there are no opportunities for actions, just words, what more could you ask for?

jan...out.

TGIF

2006-08-11T15:12:00.000+08:00

gone are the tuk tuk days from 花木苑 to 世纪公园地铁站 since shengye is back.

the boy's ipod died on me. deprived of julie london's fly me to the moon, my early mornins/off-work song.

/networking tool.

Imposing deadlines on myself is clearly redundant. they should be imposed on SITI instead. there's this one thing i really crave for in my workplace (or at least in my department): efficiency. i'm really here to slog if you ask me, not blog. as it is, work will pile up excessively only at the later stages when SITI finally gets crackin.

Happy Birthday, Doreen!
Hope you're doing well in aussie.

jan...out.

Leaving on a jetplane

2006-08-11T14:44:00.000+08:00

Thank you for sending me off.

21st.

Azalea Park.

/the family(not full strength yet.)

/family friends.

/neighbours.

/bandmates.

/latecomer. lurbch you still.

More celebrations

2006-08-11T14:15:00.000+08:00

ktv @ theone.

/us.

/beloved nutty cuzzies.

/tigger & lama.

national band competition @ VCH.

/ms chew.a teacher, a friend.

/liam.

/lihao.

NYDC @ Suntec.

/oboe.

/neh.

bbq @ PH.

/oska's lovely friends.

/oska's pretty friends.

s.EX

2006-08-11T13:21:00.000+08:00

july babies @ Pasir Ris Park.

/jonni, jan, wongky.

/loves sbg.

/kick my arse.

/birthday trio planner, normy.

/groupshot.
update me on uni life, boys.

Pre-departure activities

2006-08-11T10:38:00.000+08:00

Font's harp recital @ Bayshore.

/talented.

/musicians.

Cycling along ECP.

/missing you.